Wednesday, May 6, 2009

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i feel like i have so little to talk about of interest now that i'm a mom. i do little more than change diapers and clothing, feed, feed, feed, and rock noah. i was reading the other day something a friend said about having such a high about being a mom that the tiredness and everything else was hardly anything to even mention. i told ryan and we laughed about how we must have missed out on getting that high...parenting a newborn is stressful and frustrating at times. it's so hard to know what to do when noah is crying and crying and crying...i long for the days when he can talk so he can at least tell us what's wrong. every time he cries, it seems we go through a million questions: "is he hungry again?" "is something pinching him?" "does he have a dirty diaper?" "is he hungry again?" "is his diaper on right or is something getting squished down there?" "is he hungry again?" "did he pee through his diaper onto his clothes?" "is he sleepy?" "is he hungry again?!" so it goes...and a lot of times we have no idea. and then i question our capabilities as parents-not so much ryan, he's a great dad! but i wonder where my motherly intuition is-that one that is supposed to just know what's wrong with my baby always. it's all a lot harder than i thought it was...i have a much greater respect and aweness of my mom for having six children!

3 comments:

Jamie and Joy George said...

Sam - i'm obviously not at this point yet, and i'm sure I'll have the same struggles/questions. But...I am confident in knowing that you are a great mom. I wouldn't think any less of you.
I say all of that...so when our baby cries constantly and i'm doubting my motherly ways - maybe you can encourage me!! :)
we can't wait to meet little Noah!!

Anonymous said...

Oh Sweet Girl,
there is no mother out there that has all the answers. Every mom, yes I said it, every mom, especially new moms, goes through this. God made you just perfectly to be Noah's mom and you are doing a fabulous job. You feed and care for him, you love him unconditionally. No, you may not know what he specifically needs at one certain time, but you go through the questions and begin to do the investigation to fill that need. That makes you a wonderful parent.
There is a song out right now by Darius Rooker that says "It won't be like this for long"

Here are the lyrics:
He didn't have to wake up
He'd been up all night
Layin’ there in bed listenin’
To his new born baby cry
He makes a pot of coffee
He splashes water on his face
His wife gives him a kiss and says
It gonna be OK

It won’t be like this for long
One day soon we'll look back laughin’
At the week we brought her home
This phase is gonna fly by
So baby just hold on
‘Cause it won't be like this for long

Four years later ‘bout 4:30
She's crawling in their bed
And when he drops her off at preschool
She's clinging to his leg
The teacher peels her off of him
He says what can I do
She says now don't you worry
This’ll only last a week or two

It won’t be like this for long
One day soon you'll drop her off
And she won’t even know you're gone
This phase is gonna fly by
If you can just hold on
It won’t be like this for long

Some day soon she'll be a teenager
And at times he'll think she hates him
Then he'll walk her down the aisle
And he'll raise her veil
But right now she's up and cryin’
And the truth is that he don't mind
As he kisses her good night
And she says her prayers

He lays down there beside her
‘Til her eyes are finally closed
And just watchin’ her it breaks his heart
Cause he already knows

It won’t be like this for long
One day soon that little girl is gonna be
All grown up and gone
Yeah, this phase is gonna fly by
So, he's tryin’ to hold on

‘Cause it won’t be like this for long

It won’t be like this for long

Christina Kris said...

ok girl so when are we getting together for our little mom to mom heart to heart?? Been through that and completely understand what you are saying. You go through everything are they hungry are tired are they wet are they this or that?? and still they cry. The hardest thing for me was to learn that it is ok to walk away for a few min and let them sooth themselves. If that motherly intuition is suppose to automatically tell you what is wrong when your child cries i missed out on that one too. But every time i look at her and see her smile it makes the bad go away.